... My land is a slowly dying one, thanks to the most fearsome enemy there is—nature. Because of that, I've sacrificed others and made selfish decisions that I wish I could take back.
[...]
When it comes to turning your weapon against friends, there is no winning. [in that respect, he can probably understand bertolt's reaction at trial. whether or not you stand by what you did, there's nothing left but a horrible feeling.] However, you're correct. As a noble, it's expected that my first and foremost duty is to ensure the well-being of my family and my people, even if it means laying my own life on the line.
[truthfully, because they really have no solution to the longterm problem. but—
there's a glimmer of something thoughtful in his eyes, as he gives a deliberate shrug.]
However, I'm a greedy person, you see, and I've decided to embrace that. If I can have everything I love—my family and home, and even my friends outside of them—without sacrificing one for the other, then I will.
[he's not so idealistic as to think he can get through life without ever hurting another person in general, especially in times of war. he's no pacifist.
but at this point, he's tired of settling for decisions that only make him feel guilty.]
...I suppose some would call you selfish for that.
[He pauses, looking away.]
But I understand the sentiment. Sometimes, to be greedy is a good thing. It's only human to want the ones you love to be at your side, despite everything.
[A shrug of his shoulders.]
We all must make choices in life. And this is yours. Deep down...I don't think you can be truly blamed for that.
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[He stares at the other for a moment.]
As a noble, have you ever had to make a decision like that?
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... My land is a slowly dying one, thanks to the most fearsome enemy there is—nature. Because of that, I've sacrificed others and made selfish decisions that I wish I could take back.
[...]
When it comes to turning your weapon against friends, there is no winning. [in that respect, he can probably understand bertolt's reaction at trial. whether or not you stand by what you did, there's nothing left but a horrible feeling.] However, you're correct. As a noble, it's expected that my first and foremost duty is to ensure the well-being of my family and my people, even if it means laying my own life on the line.
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[It isn't as if you could outsmart a sandstorm, of something like that. His expression turns pensive.]
That must be a hard life. For your decisions impact more than a few. [...] Do you think you will succeed? In keeping your family and people safe?
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[truthfully, because they really have no solution to the longterm problem. but—
there's a glimmer of something thoughtful in his eyes, as he gives a deliberate shrug.]
However, I'm a greedy person, you see, and I've decided to embrace that. If I can have everything I love—my family and home, and even my friends outside of them—without sacrificing one for the other, then I will.
[he's not so idealistic as to think he can get through life without ever hurting another person in general, especially in times of war. he's no pacifist.
but at this point, he's tired of settling for decisions that only make him feel guilty.]
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[He pauses, looking away.]
But I understand the sentiment. Sometimes, to be greedy is a good thing. It's only human to want the ones you love to be at your side, despite everything.
[A shrug of his shoulders.]
We all must make choices in life. And this is yours. Deep down...I don't think you can be truly blamed for that.